I have chosen you essentially from within,
That is where the problems wholly lay…
How easier and solvable would have been
If your fading face were the reason of my stay!
Unflinchingly loyal to what we have not yet.
~ Am I losing so, to my heart, my head? ~
I resent your haunting over me as I dread
The startling thought of, if my thrill confessed,
You being “the one” and returning my feeling.
Not cool, I resemble such a doleful mess…
Yet, the safest torture is my “of us” dreaming!